Another dilemma of life

A soul that cannot Console

I received my exam results today, I passed, College failed. And this is the topic for my latest blog.

The very first blog I wrote spoke about my weakness and rather dislike for saying goodbye. Most people would write about their qualities trying to impress those who read the blog. But telling the world about the things that you don’t have and feel helpless about is what I am going to write about today.

They say that a ‘true’ friend is one that stays with you through thick and thin. He is one who will surely be there with you during the good times that you enjoy. But his real character can be judged if he is there by your side during the bad times, the times when you need someone the most.

I am that kind of guy who will always be there during the ‘good times’ but it is in the ‘bad times’ where I feel that something went wrong.

CONSOLING someone is something that I just cannot do. I find this a very artificial way of making the other person feel better. According to me it is a method used by us for the short term gain not realizing the long term side effects it has on the other person. And I have my reasons for this.

When it comes to studies, I don’t belong to the nerd category but I am one of those many who does ‘enough to pass’. When it came to the day of the results, there was never a fear of not passing. It wasn’t over confidence but an assurance over one’s ability. Hugs and high-fives were aplenty amongst those who passed but I always looked from far on the other side.

It was those who failed that I spent half my time looking at. I have worked hard and that has shown in the result but why am I still sad when the occasion calls for happiness and celebration is what I think about. What should I tell them when I go up to them.

How can I tell them

1) Everything will be alright , everything will be OK - everything is not OK , everything will be OK when like you , they too will be smiling .

2) I can understand - No Mr. , you do not understand and can never understand . You have passed , they have failed . You will never understand . Why do people even say ' I can understand ' ? 

What I could tell them but won't due to there being a time and place for everything 

1) Work harder next time , I'm sure you will pass . 

2) It's not the end of the World - Stuff like ' You've only failed an exam , you haven't failed LIFE ' shit like that 

3) Motivational and Philosophy quote overload 

What I should definitely be telling them but won't 

1) Fucker , I told you to study , but no 

a) You wanted to see the IPL in Wankhede

b) You wanted to meet ' her ' in the evening. 

c) You're favorite serial was more important. That guy makes a comeback in tonight's show . 

d) Life is football , Football is life. 

When you're on the good good it is very tough to find that ' OK ' point between good and bad . Another quality that you'll find lacking in me. 

Coming to the end I'd like to say that I'd always be there during the good times. And if you're wondering where did I go when you needed me the most , I was always there and will always be . It's just that I never said anything because I didn't know what to say.